Somedays

 Somedays I feel like "Am i difficult to love?"

Like last night.

When after making dinner instead of thanks i get criticism.

When I sat at a seat i don't usual sit at and my father chooses to sit close to my youngest sister rather than his usual sit just because i was at her usual seat.

Somedays it doesnt bother me that my parents have favourites.

And somedays i just wonder if its because i am not loveable.

A somedays i wonder if this is why no one ever wishes to stay by my side longer.

Somedays i cry. Somedays i smile.

Somedays i wish i returned to You sooner.

Daily life

 Hello blog,

It has been so long since my last entry. I actually miss reading my old posts. 😂

so here are some random photos to start:

my new ita bag

level up my Zayne affinity from Love and Deepspace

Some game photos i commissioned from Shin and had them printed out.

Made pasembur for my family

Wedding banner from love deepspace in June 2025

my derpy cat named Natsu

Ok that is all for update coz its literally 1.38am now. i should be sleeping. 😂

xoxo

Never Enough

I am never good enough but i forget that sometimes.

Not good because i say harsh things.

Not good because i say nice things.

Not good because i did not do things.

Not good even if i did do things.

Oh how is it that we can know someone for our whole lives and still not know a person truly.

Funny how I am still not over this part of my life. Probably won't get over it even till the day that i die. 

Here is praying on that day i may finally rest.