Blue and Grey

 Bismillah

This song "Blue and Grey" by BTS conveys my sad state so perfectly. Sometimes to the point that even just playing it on loop seems to spiral me deeper into a state of sadness. The English version suits me more to be honest. Here's the English demo:

Where is my angel?
I’m sick and tired of everything
Someone come and save myself
‘Cause I can’t take it anymore
Everywhere I go, everywhere I see
Can you look at me? 'Cause I’m blue and grey
Every time I cry, every time I smile
Can you look at me? 'Cause I’m blue and grey
I just wanna be happier
Baby don’t you let me go
I feel tired in the winter sky
I wish I could be stronger.

Do you have a particular colour you associate with sadness? Universally it's the colour blue but personally I fell that if sadness/loneliness/desolateness has a colour it would be grey. 

When I went to Tokyo my first impression of the entire city was Grey. Just being in a place that gives me that impression makes me feel suffocated. Of course I was just a traveller so I would not know how it really feels like to live in Tokyo but just that overwhelming atmosphere of greyness swept me into a strange emotion that I cannot express in words. 

I'm thankful I live with my family, thankful everyday I can see colour in my life. Thankful that these feelings of bleakness are fleeting.

I can't imagine living in greyness every single moment of my life. Just these short moments leave me feeling suffocated. Imagine feeling suffocated every day. How much worse that must be. 

I pray everyone around the world should be spared from such misery. 

If you are feeling blue and grey like I am right now... I hope your colours will come to you. 

It might take time, it might not be now, but I hope we can continue struggling to find them. Wherever they may be.