14 August 2017


She trailed her fingers at the edge of his desk while humming. It was not a song she was humming, she did not seem the kind. It was a low hum, one without melody or purpose. From behind she looked like she was caressing the table of a loved one. Nothing can be further from the truth. She smirked a little as she took her place on his seat. Still humming that note with no melody. Her eyes gleaming in the dark like that of a wolf in the dark woods.
She puts her hand slowly into his drawer and pulled out a single note.
'He already anticipated this i see,' she thought to herself as she let's out a low chuckle.

The note, written in that loathsome boy's handwriting, was scrunched up and thrown in the garbage nearby. She closed the lid slowly as to not make a sound. 'Well, it's no fun beating him if he makes it easy.'

She moves to pick up her bag and as she walks to the classroom entrance, she hums the tune with no purpose.

Why do I sleep so much?


I usually sleep a lot... No doubt about it. My friends are also amazed at my ability to sleep almost anywhere and also baffled by how I can get sick with just 1 day of less sleep.

I'm perplexed and annoyed with myself about this. Why do I sleep so much? I ask this everyday. Why can't I stay awake longer? Why can't I use my time when I am awake much more prudently? Why do I waste time?

My sis has been sending me fact posts on IG saying it might be because of depression. I don't have depression. Perfectly fine with my life. I am just so VERY TIRED everyday.

just living is tiring. I am amazed at people who live like they are on full throttle everyday. Damn you lucky extroverts. If you were batteries and could transfer your energy to me takpa juga. Unfortunately extroverts GAIN energy from being around others whereas Intoverts need to generate our own geddem energy everyday.

My 8 hours of sleep are necessary! But so is reading manga and playing game to make me happy and so is ibadah to make my heart full and so is family time and so is working for halal income.... 24 hours is a cruel number. I want to hate you, but then you are a rezeki from Allah. I should be thankful for every 24 hours.... Sigh.

Ok. rant over. I need my nap.


17 December 2016

UMS: Bon ODORI 17/12/2016 & finance Training


Today has been fruitful and full of new experiences.

Last night I stayed back in my office till 8pm to complete my training materials. It is the first time that I am conducting a 4 hour technical training. After completing my slides I went home and continued to check up on my questionnaires. I had one question which did not sound right. I re-did it and had to re-print for my colleagues.
The next morning I sort of woke up late. I actually got up at 4:30am but went back to sleep only to wake up again at 6am!
When I arrived at the office it was already 7am and I had to quickly set up the training room, my notes and the questionnaires.
The training went on smoothly and there were a few times I had to stop to drink water. Who knew a 4 hour training session could be so exhausting for my throat! I am glad that the feedback for the training was good but every time I looked to the back and saw my superior smirking I kept getting nervous. haha. I have huge regard for her so it was like being a teacher under the watchful eye of a great master.... Sort of.
So right after my training I evaluated their questionnaires and emailed out my thanks for their attention during the training.
Upon returning home I had a slight headache and had to go to sleep. Results from an entire day of nerves and late night preparations.
I woke up at 6pm and had to rush to wear my yukata because I made plans with my sister Rhubaica to join UMS Bon Odori.

The event was so much fun! They had a japanese tea ceremony that I wanted to join but was too shy to. Maybe next time. They also had aikido, kendo and kempo performances. There was also a cool band performance by some japanese auntie and uncles called JAM. The japanese club even put on a senbonzakura performance which was cool.
Lastly we joined the bon dance which was SO MUCH FUN! Going round the stage in simple steps was enjoyable. Baica was disappointed there were no mochi's for sale but I did suggest perhaps next year we could open a booth! haha. I could make tori katsu sandwich, onigiri balls, gyoza and mochi! Maybe also sell my own drawings and clear out old manga magazines. Perhaps.
The event was until 11pm but we had to go home earlier because the university is quite a distance from my house.
Overall it was such an enjoyable day. I feel really blessed this month. So much fun, good news from IATSS, visiting my loved ones in KL and among other good things.
Alhamdulillah for everything. The sad thing is even though I am here enjoying life there are still people around the world that are not as lucky. Aleppo and Rohingya's I pray you could one day achieve peace. I would never imagine the pain they go through.

To end my post as usual I give thanks to Allah for another day He gave to me. Alhamdulillah