10 January 2012

About expectations

Bismillah

I learned to not put expectations in people (although I unconciously do it anyway and get worked up when they don't meet expectations). I found out something funny today. Maybe because I'm in my zen mood or maybe because I'm not so stressed out but when someone said to me, "I'll do it." or "Later", I no longer give a damn about it. (pardon the language).



Normally I'll have this sense of trust where I 'expect' the person to keep their word. Now these words no longer have any sense of trust in them. I don't think I've changed my attitude on this matter and maybe tomorrow I'll start expecting something from these words again but last weeks contemplations have made me a little stronger I guess (maybe for now).
Let's see, is it better to trust or just to watch and see what the person does without expectations?
At the moment I'm supporting the later opinion. I've lost trust in people (except my family). So since I do not trust people, I'll trust my Lord. In the end, everything comes from Him anyway.

Friends and loved ones can hurt me so much more than enemies or strangers. My sisters call me an idiot because I forgive so easily (my principle in life is never hate anyone) and a friend once (long ago) told me that I'm too overly critical and strict on myself (I always blame myself) .... I wonder.

Alhamdulillah

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