Bertaubat: While there is still time.

Bismillah

"Dan (patutkah) mereka (berdegil) tidak mahu memperhatikan, bahawa mereka dicuba (dengan berbagai-bagai bencana) pada tiap-tiap tahun, sekali atau dua kali; kemudian mereka tidak juga bertaubat dan tidak pula mereka mahu beringat (dan insaf)?" - At-Taubah (9:126)

I started the new year in a bad way. A really LAZY way. I slept at around 2am because Eunice came over and we went to Putrajaya with Nelly to watch some celebration (it wasn't much) and then had some midnight snacks.
Today I woke up at 1:20pm. I'm very disappointed with myself but I know I cannot change the past.
I just watched a video where a Muslim girl from Malaysia proudly tells a group of people that she converted into a Christian. I'm quite shocked but also very sad. I realised that I'm very lucky because my life is not as bad as hers and I'm so very blessed with the best of families and the best of friends. I am not proverty stricken and I am not disabled. I am not stupid (although I'm still ignorant of somethings). I am very happy with my life and I should not complain so much. I have not been tried so badly that I'd leave my faith in You. That is the biggest gift You gave me (please don't take it away from me T___T).

So this year, I'll start complaining less. Get angry less. Sleep less (God help me). Eat less extravagantly. Share smiles more. I'll pray more. Ask for Your forgiveness every night. I'll try harder, so I pray You send me your strength because I'm very weak at keeping up with my resolutions. I'm nothing without You and everything because of You. Everything You give me is like a precious gift. Everytime I talk to people about my family it makes me want to cry because I realize that in the end they all belong to You. So I'll cherish Your gifts more and thank You every night.

This year.... I'll love You even more. :')

Alhamdulillah